Two Sundays ago I taught a Bible study at church talking about living in faith and walking by faith and not by sight. The Lord convinced me I was to teach this. I spoke to Tom about it and He agreed, it was the right thing to do. This week I had abundant opportunity to practice my new found truths
This has been a week of extremes for me. Extreme pressure, extreme hours, more extreme pressure and of course, travel. A couple of days ago, I had responded poorly to a challenge I had been presented with. Quite frankly, I responded in a not so Christ like way. I remember thinking almost aloud while sitting in the car at the hotel: “It’s like I am two separate people. There are times the good Dr. Jekyll is speaking and other times it is the evil Mr. Hyde.” There is the good Andy and the bad Andy, but there is definitely two Andy’s. I didn’t give it much thought as I had a lot of training to do.
The next morning (Thursday morning) after an allergy riddled night, I stepped out of the shower and suddenly I remembered a document I received at Onsite last November. I was so caught unaware, that I simply stood there almost speechless.
An old Cherokee Chief was speaking to a young warrior. He told him there were two wolves that lived inside of him. A good wolf and a bad wolf. They were constantly fighting. The young warrior asked him, “Who will win?” The wise old chief answered “The one you feed the most.”
I got goose bumps galore and in a flash, I saw something I had been told, but it didn’t sink in until this morning in the shower in a hotel in Asheville NC. I am a task oriented person for sure. I want a formulae to work with, something I can do that makes me feel like I am accomplishing something. I’ve not been able to overcome things in my life that are driving me batty! I’ve tried and tried and tried, but to no avail. Gritting my teeth and trying harder produces less results and more frustration. That clearly isn’t the answer.
But here, in a lonely hotel room under all kinds of pressure, the Lord in his infinite kindness gave me an answer to a question I asked just the day before. The answer came at the right time, in the right manner for me to understand. My problem is, I’m feeding the wrong wolf. Suddenly pieces of the puzzle of my life just plopped into place. I had a key to my life. Well, at least the key to a door I couldn’t seem to get through. Stop feeding the bad wolf and feed the good wolf! Simple yet profound. Profound yet something I can do. Simply stop feeding the bad wolf! Wow! My heart was full of hope. I sensed the Lord smiling as one of his kids “gets it”.
I finished drying off, got dressed and logged on to prepare for my day by reading Small Straws in a Soft Wind by Marsha Burns. This was for 5-12-2011:.
Haven’t I said that I would give you the treasures of darkness and hidden riches in secret places? Stop and ponder. You will find that I have brought the light of revelation in areas of your life that you didn’t even expect. Rejoice that you are growing in understanding because this understanding will make you more effective in My kingdom, says the Lord. I have given you a taste and a glimpse of My glory, which will make you desire even more.
Isaiah 45:3 I will give you the treasures of darkness and hidden riches of secret places, that you may know that I, the LORD, Who call you by your name, Am the God of Israel.
Oh most gracious Lord …. Thank you for your patience and kindness. Thank you for teaching me in a way I can understand. Forgive me for being so slow Lord but thank you for your secret places.